[It was strange. Here Roxas was all ready for pleasure, and he instead became woefully overwhelmed. He would be mad at himself later, in a far more private setting. Xemnas didn’t need to hear all the frustrations the smaller blond had with himself. There would always be something he wished he'd done better, been better at, had to be better at. Those would be his private worries and concerns. Everyone was allowed some secrets.
He’d just be determined to overcome this as soon as he could. Be better. Feel silly for chiding himself. This was a first. No one was good their first time. Well. Maybe. He didn’t know what good was just yet when it came to sex. Everything felt good, so he’d have to measure all future interactions on this time. The future seemed like a good thing to think about, yet it made the overwhelmed boy worse. He couldn’t think about what would happen in the present yet to come.
Focus on the moment. Focusing on the hand in his hair, warm skin against his own. Taking one thing at a time as his heart beat out a sharp staccato. Each movement was jarring, and he wasn’t sure what his body was doing. The sudden change in position sent him reeling. He almost started flailing when he was stopped by arms around his waist. Feeling Xemnas breathing behind him made Roxas unconsciously try to match that rhythm. As more air got into his lungs, his mind started clearing, and he noticed that he was being peppered with occasional kisses. Roxas took a deep, long breath, closing his eyes as he exhaled.
Skin didn’t feel on fire anymore. Nerves were going back to their usual routine, the only parts hyper-aware being those connected to the other man. The blond was calmer now. Taking a few more breaths before he dared to glance back, he managed a small smile. His arms moved to drape over the tan ones wrapped around him.]
I’m… [He took a moment to think of how to word this without sounding strange. No. It would sound strange either way.] I’m happy you got what you wanted.
[Even if it wasn’t how Roxas wanted to help. He'd wanted to do more, but he had to remind himself his body had to be prepared. Kept having to tell himself not to rush. Yet there was something he noticed... He could tell just from how they were laying that something was different. Lighter than before. It was nice to bask in simple affections like this. He wondered how it would be when he was less shy and more assertive. Far more wanting and willing to his own needs and how to get them. Would they still have moments like this? Where he’d feel safe in these arms?
There was a sudden determination in his eyes as he kept looking at Xemnas.]
I want to try more next time. Okay? I can’t just keep calling you Superior and hope that works.
[Though he would definitely still use that title in the future. With a reaction like the one he got, why not? He wanted to see Xemnas unraveled again more than anything.]
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He’d just be determined to overcome this as soon as he could. Be better. Feel silly for chiding himself. This was a first. No one was good their first time. Well. Maybe. He didn’t know what good was just yet when it came to sex. Everything felt good, so he’d have to measure all future interactions on this time. The future seemed like a good thing to think about, yet it made the overwhelmed boy worse. He couldn’t think about what would happen in the present yet to come.
Focus on the moment. Focusing on the hand in his hair, warm skin against his own. Taking one thing at a time as his heart beat out a sharp staccato. Each movement was jarring, and he wasn’t sure what his body was doing. The sudden change in position sent him reeling. He almost started flailing when he was stopped by arms around his waist. Feeling Xemnas breathing behind him made Roxas unconsciously try to match that rhythm. As more air got into his lungs, his mind started clearing, and he noticed that he was being peppered with occasional kisses. Roxas took a deep, long breath, closing his eyes as he exhaled.
Skin didn’t feel on fire anymore. Nerves were going back to their usual routine, the only parts hyper-aware being those connected to the other man. The blond was calmer now. Taking a few more breaths before he dared to glance back, he managed a small smile. His arms moved to drape over the tan ones wrapped around him.]
I’m… [He took a moment to think of how to word this without sounding strange. No. It would sound strange either way.] I’m happy you got what you wanted.
[Even if it wasn’t how Roxas wanted to help. He'd wanted to do more, but he had to remind himself his body had to be prepared. Kept having to tell himself not to rush. Yet there was something he noticed... He could tell just from how they were laying that something was different. Lighter than before. It was nice to bask in simple affections like this. He wondered how it would be when he was less shy and more assertive. Far more wanting and willing to his own needs and how to get them. Would they still have moments like this? Where he’d feel safe in these arms?
There was a sudden determination in his eyes as he kept looking at Xemnas.]
I want to try more next time. Okay? I can’t just keep calling you Superior and hope that works.
[Though he would definitely still use that title in the future. With a reaction like the one he got, why not? He wanted to see Xemnas unraveled again more than anything.]